: The KissNotes:

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"Happy New Year!!!"

The twelve boys screamt in union. They were gathering at the 3rd dorm, celebrating new year's eve together.

"So today, Haruto and Jeongwoo are 20 right?" Jaehyuk grinned.

"Yes! Officially adults!" The 04 boys shouted, couldn't hide the excitement.

"Well I have been rooting for this." Hyunsuk took out a huge bottle of soju from his bag. "You two should try it. This is my favorite flavor."

Jihoon stood up to look for some soju glasses and Hyunsuk taught the boys how to open the soju bottle. Haruto tasted a bit of wine, frowned, then asked for more. It was bitter and made him feel dizzy, but in a good way. Jeongwoo also asked for another glass while the older just laughed at them. The boys were drinking for nearly an hour, with Junghwan beside them playing on his phone, whining that he still needed to wait for another year.

Jeongwoo kept glancing over Haruto. The drunk Haruto with tinted blush is for sure the cutest scene to him. He was having a really huge huge crush on his best friend for a long time. At first, he thought that these were just normal feelings towards his bestie, not even close to crush or love. But he soon realized he was even getting jealous when others are too close to Haruto, feeling happy and jittery at the same time when they spent time together,...

"I think we should leave these two to enjoy their first moments of adulthood. Let's go to sleep, it is late." Hyunsuk, face red because of the alcohol, holding onto Jihoon's arm to stand up.

"Yeh, enjoy. Just don't stay up too late. And don't drink too much." Jaehyuk said, cleaning up the other members' glasses.

It was 1 a.m, and the two boys sat quietly in the hideout room, staring at the empty bottles.

"So... We are 20." Jeongwoo broke the silence.

"Yeah. We are." Haruto responded, not sure what he really needed to say.

Haruto leaned his head on Jeongwoo's shoulder, and closed his eyes. He always feels peaceful and warm everytime he leans on his best friend's broad and firm shoulders. He wished the time could freeze, so they could stay like this forever, with the cozy atmosphere lingered around. Jeongwoo smelled good today, his minty shampoo, sweet shower gel, mixed with the aroma wine scent, is just perfect and enough. Haruto took a deep breath, trying not to fall asleep. He wanted to spend this long night next to his Jeongwoo.

"Well, Ruto... Do you know what other things I want to taste when I'm 20, besides alcohol?" Jeongwoo whispered, looking at his friend who was quite hazy.

"What?" Haruto whispered back, not understanding what Jeongwoo wanted to say. "How could I know?"

"Then guess it." Jeongwoo turned to Haruto, making the older sit up and look at him in full confusion.

"I... don't know."

"You. I want to taste you."

He leaned forward, hands wrapped around the older's nape, locked their eyes, waiting for Haruto's response. The alcohol might have triggered the bravery inside him. During all the years that he had a crush on Haruto, he had never even dared to keep their faces this close, but first time trying liquor could make people do crazy things that they might regret when they wake up.

The older whispered with their lips brushing.

"Then it seems like we are on the same page."

Haruto smiled, then finally pulled Jeongwoo into a kiss. It was a soft, delicate kiss. Jeongwoo found himself smiling between their kisses, and he could feel that Haruto was doing the same. Finally, he could taste that pair of plump lips. Jeongwoo slightly bit Haruto's lower lips, asking for permission which the older gladly accepted, letting him to suck his tongue and discover every part of his carven. Haruto tasted like candies, familiar like the kind of strawberry lollipop that you could find at the nearby grocery store, rare and saccharine like the colorful cotton candy that you could only buy at amusement parks, followed with a taste and strong scent of liquor. Haruto tasted better than anything that he had ever tasted.

Haruto's hand roamed Jeongwoo's back, slowly moving under his T-shirt, touching the smooth cool skin. The younger finally pulled away, feeling hot and cheeks were red, not sure because of the alcohol or the kiss, but he giggled when he saw that the older's face also looked like a fresh tomato. They looked at each other for a while, then Haruto planted a soft kiss on the younger's forehead.

Jeongwoo slowly closed his eyes, falling his head on Haruto's chest and hugged him back. The taller tightened the hug, ruffling the tanned skin hair and inhaled the mesmerizing scent one more time. He loves Jeongwoo.

Both of them slowly drifted into sleep, forgetting about the heavy snow or the freezing weather outside, just enjoying each other's warmth and the feel of home.

: The SmutNotes:

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Haruto really thought that after that New Year's Eve, they could finally be together as a couple. But that was just what he thought.

Instead, things were even worse than before. Jeongwoo started to avoid him and tried to hang out with Jaehyuk or Asahi. It has been 2 weeks already, and everytime he went close to Jeongwoo, the younger made an excuse to move away. "This is torture." Haruto thought. He stayed up late for nights, thinking if he did anything wrong, then fell asleep with the dream about their kiss that day.

The group was in their practice room, joking and playing around after they had finished filming the dance practice. Haruto was about to approach Jeongwoo when he already saw Junghwan pull the tanned skin to watch something on his phone and they both laughed. Haruto frowned.

"Hey are you okay?" Yoshi patted Haruto's shoulders. "You seem distracted lately."

"Yeah... Can I sleep in your room today? I want to play late but then I don't think I would want to go back to my dorm." Haruto has been hanging out in Yoshi's room recently, because the older just bought a new PS5. He really wanted to invite Jeongwoo too, but he was ignoring him so he had to wait. He was planning to spend the whole night playing video games to forget about his sadness and frustration because of Jeongwoo.

"As long as you promise to tell me what is bugging you." Yoshi smiled with an affirmed expression.

"Okay deal." Haruto smiled back and stood up, followed Yoshi outside without knowing that a certain Korean was looking at them.

"So... What's wrong?" Yoshi gave Haruto a can of beer, which the younger happily accepted.

"Well... I am not sure where to start. Would you be surprised if I said that I like someone?" he took a sip, still not so used with the bitter taste.

"Oh, so what happened between you and Jeongwoo?" Yoshi laughed. He should have expected this. "And yes, I'm not surprised. The whole fucking group know that you two are having a crush on each other. Even Junghwan knew it. You two are not good at hiding feelings, yet too dumb to even realize."

"What?" Haruto's eyes widened, almost choking on his drink. "So we were really that obvious?"

"Of course. Now tell me, what happened that made you become so stressed about him."

"So... That night when you guys left us with the soju... A few things happened, this and that... Then we kissed. I don't think you want to know the details. Yeah, basically we kissed. But that's not the problem. It's just after that, he suddenly avoids me." Haruto heave a sigh.

"Did you do anything, or maybe say anything that made him upset?"

"I didn't even have a chance to talk to him after that night..." Haruto shook his head, his heart felt heavy again. "When I woke up, he had already left because Jihoon asked Jeongwoo to come to his dorm and help him with something... And then you came and called me to go shopping and have lunch. After that... yeah nothing else."

"I think that's the problem. You didn't talk to him. I know that he is ignoring you, but just try. Jeongwoo is not a hard-headed person. He will listen to you if you insist. Trust me." Yoshi patted Haruto's back when he saw the boy was on the verge of crying.

Haruto looked up and rubbed his eyes.

"You don't need to talk to him now, it's just my suggestion. Now let's play and stop being a cry baby." Yoshi laughed, handed the controller and earned a slight hit from Haruto. The two started playing and fell asleep on the floor.

The next day, they went to the company together. Jaehyuk was going with Asahi and Jeongwoo.

"Where did you go last night Ruto? Didn't see you in your room." Jaehyuk frowned. "We bought some soju, new flavored, and waited for you but you didn't reply to my texts so we drank already. There are still 2 bottles left in the fridge if you want to taste it."

"Ah, I was staying with Yoshi. Okay of course I would drink it when I got back to the dorm." Haruto smiled, but his smile quickly disappeared when he saw Jeongwoo's furrowed face.

The group left the company when it was already 8pm. Jeongwoo did not want to go home yet, so he walked along the Han river, watching the crowded street. He continued to walk slowly until he got home.

He saw a note on the wall in the dormitory's kitchen "Asahi and I will hang out tonight and probably won't come home since there is no schedule tomorrow, and Junghwan is staying at Doyoung's dorm. You could also go somewhere if you want, if not, remember to lock the front door carefully. - Jaehyuk."

Jeongwoo went around and saw that the living room was empty, and so was Haruto's. "Bet he is staying at Yoshi's dorm tonight too. So it's just me here." Jeongwoo sighed and went to his room.

But he was surprised to see a drunk Haruto on his bed. The Japanese's face was red, half asleep and hands still holding an empty soju bottle. The other bottle was on the floor, also empty. Haruto just drank wine for the second time in his life, and God, it's sure that two whole bottles at a time is not a good idea.

"Oh my.... Sit up Ruto!" Jeongwoo half yelled, climbed on his bed to wake the older up.

"Why are you... ignoring me?" Haruto whispered, the alcohol scent was still strong in his breath. He waited for Jeongwoo in his room, but then got too bored and decided to drink some wine. The more he drank, the more the thoughts of Jeongwoo surrounded him, making him become so frustrated and gloomy, so he kept on drinking without control.

"I am not! Now just sit up properly!" Jeongwoo hugged him, tried to pull him up.

Haruto sat up, but then fell into Jeongwoo's arms.

"Yes you are... We haven't even talked for weeks. I miss you. Why are you doing this to me? After we just kissed?"

"That kiss? It means nothing. Forget about it." Jeongwoo shook his head. It was hard to build the wall between them, he didn't want to destroy it.

"It was my first fucking kiss! We kissed! How the hell can I forget about it?" Haruto yelled, his voice cracked. "Tell me, do you really mean it when you say that I am the one you want to taste, or are all your crazy unconscious words when you are drunk!"

"I should be the one asking you that!" Jeongwoo yelled back.

"What the fuck did I do?" A drop of tear streamed down on Haruto's cheek. Jeongwoo could feel his heart clenched. He never wanted to hurt Haruto. He sighed, brushed his hand through the older's hair while the other hand patted his back to stop him from crying.

"Well... After that night, I just went to Jihoon's dorm for a while because he asked me to help him move some stuff. But when I went back to our room, you had already left with Yoshi. And days after that, I kept seeing you hanging around with him, you even slept in his room last night. So I thought that you might just... joking around with me? That you are drunk, so drunk that you even kiss someone you don't even have any feelings for."

They stayed silent for a while, then Haruto sat up properly this time.

"Too bad I'm already drunk now, so you might not believe me. But I love you. Watanabe Haruto is fucking in love with Park Jeongwoo. You hear me? Don't ever ignore me like that again."

Before Jeongwoo could function his words, Haruto already pulled Jeongwoo into a kiss. A deep kiss, with his tongue flickered inside the younger's cavern, lips smashing create dirty sounds. They slowly laid down, Haruto's on top of Jeongwoo, while his hand went inside the other's shirt, touching his abs. Jeongwoo could still taste the strong alcohol in Haruto's mouth, and he started to get dizzy as if he also drank it earlier. When they pulled out, both were out of their breath.

"If you really love me like that, show me." Jeongwoo whispered, then started to grab Haruto's collar, asked for permission.

Haruto knew exactly what Jeongwoo was referring to, and he loved it. He smirked, letting Jeongwoo unbutton his shirt, while his hands worked on Jeongwoo's belt. He rubbed his nose on Jeongwoo's clothed bulge, earning a moan from the younger when he finally freed his dick. He throwed both his boxer and his pants on the floor. Jeongwoo pulled his big T-shirt down to cover up a bit because he was shy. However it could only cover half of his member, while his dickhead with leaking precum was exposed, making Haruto turned on even more.

He went up back to Jeongwoo's face, kissed him, then slowly trailed his tongue down to the younger jaw line, creating marks on his neck. He removed Jeongwoo's T-shirt, then continued to lick his collar bone. Haruto licked Jeongwoo's nipple, bit and sucked it, while his hands were playing with the other nipple. Jeongwoo moaned, his cock twitching when his nipples hardened and even quite hurt, but Haruto didn't stop flicking his tongue around them. Haruto finally sat up and looked at Jeongwoo. A naked Jeongwoo with a leaking cock and red nipples was definitely the prettiest thing that Haruto had ever witnessed, and he wished he could just pound inside him already. Without a second thought, Haruto pushed two fingers inside Jeongwoo's hole, scissoring him.

"Hng... Ha..ah... Ruto..." Jeongwoo couldn't help but to close his eyes and scream out loud.

He had never touched his hole before, and Haruto's slender fingers were moving inside him way too fast. But he liked it, he liked having something of Haruto inside him. Haruto pushed another finger in, and this made Jeongwoo arched his back. The taller quickly put a pillow under the back to make sure Jeongwoo was comfortable. Three fingers moving inside him, in and out, touching every corner of him.

"I... I think this is enough..." Jeongwoo moaned. He is so desperate now.

"You sure? This is your first time right, you should prepare." Haruto asked, fingers still moving inside Jeongwoo's hole.

"Yes please..." The younger nodded. "Fuck me hard." Haruto gulped upon hearing the younger's words, spreading his precum along the cock. He wished they had some lube so he could lessen the pain for Jeongwoo, but how could they prepare the lube if they never really prepared for the sex.

He aligned his dick at the entrance, and slowly pushed in, examining if there was any painful expression on his partner's face. Jeongwoo just closed his eyes, breathing deeply while his ass was clenching around Haruto's big dick. After Haruto pushed in all the way, he stayed there until Jeongwoo finished adjusting to his size, then he started to move. He thrusted in faster and faster. Jeongwoo picked up the pace quickly, even wrapped his legs around Haruto's waist, causing the older's cock to push in even deeper, balls touching his ass.

"Ah fuck... this feels good..." Haruto groaned. He should have tried to fuck Jeongwoo sooner. The way Jeongwoo was clenching around him was way better than his hands.

They moaned vocally, feeling relief that there was no one at home right now. It would be so tortured not to moan when it was this satisfying and please. Once Haruto hit Jeongwoo's spot, the tanned skin screamt, tried to grind faster and harder. He could even feel his bed moving. Finally, Jeongwoo shot all his cum on his and Haruto's belly. His face blushed so hard and he started to catch his breath. Haruto was also about to come, but when he was about to pull out, Jeongwoo shook his head. "Come inside me. Claim me." Haruto chuckled, then he gasped and groaned, then shot his cum inside Jeongwoo. He pulled out, then laid on top of Jeongwoo. They both breathed heavily, cheeks were hot, stomachs and bottom were sticky with cum. Jeongwoo kissed him one more time, this time just a soft kiss on the lips. Jeongwoo roamed his hands on Haruto's back, raked his fingers through the taller's hair while Haruto was biting his earlobe.

"Hey, you seemed tired because of the wine you drank earlier. You should lie down instead of pleasuring me." Jeongwoo whispered.

"But I don't want to stop yet." Haruto moaned, disappointed. He was indeed sleepy, but he still wanted to feel his cock inside Jeongwoo at least one more time.

"Who said we would stop?" Jeongwoo smirked. "We will just change the position a bit."

He said while pushing Haruto to make his back laid on the headboard. Jeongwoo sat on Haruto's lap, put his arms around Haruto's shoulder and kissed him. Haruto was shocked. He never thought that Jeongwoo would ever take the lead. Haruto is used to being sexy on stage, he does not mind to expose his body, or lick his lips and stuff like that, but Jeongwoo is completely opposite. He felt shy even just exposing his arms. Haruto couldn't help but smile thinking that he was the only one who could see this dirty kinky side of Jeongwoo, the only one who could witness Jeongwoo's body.

Jeongwoo positioned himself on Haruto's cock, hands grabbing his ass cheeks, and he slided all the way in with just one slam. He could feel that his ass was just being ripped, but the feeling of Haruto's hard huge dick inside him was enough to make him forget everything. The feeling was too overwhelming, he started to move, riding the older's cock like a horse. Haruto kept his hand on Jeongwoo's waist to prevent him from falling. His one hand started to touch Jeongwoo's cock slit, making the younger almost jumped because of pleasure. He stroked Jeongwoo's cock, up and down, sometimes even stretched a finger to play with his balls while continuing to touch every veins on his dick.

"Yes, there! Agh, more!" Jeongwoo started to scream out incoherent words while slamming himself like crazy on Haruto's thick member. They gasped each other's name, and with one last thrust, they both came.

Jeongwoo lied down next to Haruto, they had to adjust themselves since Haruto didn't even want to pull his cock out.

"I didn't know that you are this wild in bed. Can't believe you are the same person that was mad at me because I tried to show your abs during concerts." Haruto giggled, hugging Jeongwoo tighter.

"It is because I just want you to see it." Jeongwoo whispered, hiding his face in Haruto's chest.

They stayed like that for a few minutes, then Haruto decided to pull out and stood up to grab some tissues.

"Clean yourself and wear these, I don't want anyone to walk in tomorrow and could also see your body." Haruto also threw Jeongwoo some clean clothes from the closet.

"So you are protecting me from our members too?" Jeongwoo laughed, benched over the bed to clean the cum on his bed sheet.

Haruto slapped Jeongwoo's exposed butt. "As if you were not jealous because of Yoshi a while ago. And look at your ass, too good to let anyone else know about it."

After they were all settled, they cuddled on their bed, drifted to sleep and for sure could not have a wilder dream than what they just did.

Haruto woke up because the sun ray was shining straight to his face. He opened his eyes just to see a cute sleeping Jeongwoo next to him. He beamed. He just stared at Jeongwoo, and a few minutes later, the younger also woke up.

"I love you, Woo." Haruto kissed Jeongwoo forehead.

"What?" Jeongwoo said in full confusion and sleepiness. He was not used to seeing this handsome face up close right in the morning, and of course not used to hearing such things or receiving a kiss from him like this.

"You said that drunk words are crazy and unconscious, so I'm just confirming that I love you, whether I'm drunk or not." Haruto smiled.

"I love you too, Ruto."