tomorrow is my birthday, i'm tingling with sadness lol

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­­­­­­­­­­­­­­ Donghyuck has always been a fearless kid who allowed himself to be scared of nobody but his own stepbrother. Anybody with a beautiful face and an interesting personality could become popular in middle school and the boy really flaunts that shit, collecting hearts of everybody in the school by his natural charm. Sweet but ruthless, lovely but harsh. You either love him for being savage or just despises him for acting so...fake, like Regina George but slightly gay. He hasn't been sorted yet but people expect him to be a Beta or an Alpha, the young boy is too "rebellious" for an Omega of the area

On the other end of the "famous kids" spectrum laid Mark Lee. No one can really explain why a foreigner is so special, the attraction is unexplainable but at the same time, not really (you get it?). He is friendly, quiet but has a cute girlfriend, your standard Alpha next door kind of guy.

It doesn't feel like they're in the same world and no one expects them to be. Donghyuck has all that jazz but Mark is just a typical and likable.

However, the balance got broken when they got paired as a partner for a science project. Paths crossed and they clicked, they said opposites attract and it's true, Mark and he created such an amazing dynamic that people are in awe.

Such dynamic that....

"Careful, I can't have you fuck up my backseat", Donghyuck slurred, hands running through the Alpha's soft hair, tears brimmed the corner of his eyes as Mark teasingly riled him up.

A secret behind closed doors. A pair of best friends give one another a helping hand, literally. The younger doesn't know how they started exactly, all he remembered were under the dimming lights of his bedroom, Mark's eyes are so beautiful that he decided that morals don't matter anymore and the only answer to the churning of his stomach is the guy's chapped lips.

Fallen for a straight guy, he is the biggest idiot.

"You spaced out", Mark murmured, his tongue working magic on his pink nipples, "What's wrong?". Donghyuck swallowed his emotions, glaring at the older, "If you started moving like a real man, maybe I wouldn't be so unfocused"

The older chuckled dryly, gripping on his hip before start slamming his pelvis, making the younger chokes on his own spit.

"Fuck, fuck, f...argh~", he moaned, honey voice dripped all over Mark's shoulder, making the young Alpha melted. The boy under him hasn't even been sorted, yet he knows Donghyuck will be the most attractive Omega this town will ever have.

Mouthing on the younger's ears, he rambled a strain of profanities as he fills the condom up, enjoying the shaky pudu in his arms because of overstimulation.

They stayed quiet for a while, both youngsters' minds are over the place. Mark has a girlfriend, Donghyuck is not even sorted, none of them are even legal but here they are, drowned in the ecstasy that they were once introduced at one of those freaky parties.

"I went to the doctor...", Donghyuck said, "He said that my sorting day is coming soon"

"Yeah?", Mark laughed, "I think we both know what you'll be already"

The brunette beauty giggles, "Yeah... I mean it's expected...not other people though... but between you and me"

"So hyung,...I was wondering...."; "Yeah?"

Donghyuck looks at him with those big, doe eyes, "Mind spending my first heat together?"

Mark stopped for a bit before laughing it off, "You're such a jokester! You know I have a girlfriend and this nice guy image is giving me good clout, I'm s-"

"Yeah bitch, I get it, you're as straight as a pole, I was just joking", Donghyuck smiled, pushing the Alpha off his body. "Now get out, it's late, I want a warm bath, Jeno is probably waiting for you to come back for dinner"

He watches as the older slipping on his clothes clumsily and left the back seat and drives him back to Johnny's place.

Fuck heterosexuality fakeness.

Donghyuck stopped himself from remembering more, staring into the darkness of his room (Chenle's spare bedroom). Guess he is in fact, a hoe at a young age.

A week later, he came back, "Sorted as an Omega" now written in his profile. He was a little upset that there wasn't a text from his best friend asking if he was okay but he gets it, Mark is a shy boy.

Meeting eye contact the guy at the end of the hallway, he waves joyfully, whistling "Mark Lee hyung!" at the top of his lungs and come sprinting into his arms only to be cowardly shoved by a weirdly cold Mark. He looks around and sees that the older's friends are standing around, his girlfriend looks fairly disgusted.

"I-is there something wrong?", he's taken back at how the Alpha is avoiding his eyes, looking down his shoes on the ground, "Mark?"

"Listen here, young man", the girl pushed him, "What do you think you're doing? He is my boyfriend, an Alpha and what are you...a gay Omega! I don't want such disgusting kind of people around him, I know what you're trying to do and I won't allow it"

His heart dropped. Being accepted as a homosexual is already hard, he doesn't like it when people using his sexual preference as a form of attack. The feelings that he tried to laid deep under being called out right in front of his crush...Donghyuck feels humiliated. But is it like he can give a response, especially when what he and Mark were doing is in fact, helping Mark cheating on his girl?

"Mark! Tell her, explain! I am your best friend! Are you not going to back me up?", he turned to the guy, tugging on his sweater but was pulled away,

"No Donghyuck, she is right. You're not a good influence and now that you have been sorted as an Omega, who knows what your intentions could be. It was fun while it lasted but I think our relationship should cut short here for the sake of my romance life", Mark tells him, a small smile that he knows too well evident on his face.

He doesn't even know what to feel anymore. Shocked? Devastated? Angry? He is too young to deal with this kind of situation. Donghyuck knows people are staring and it shimmers the insecurity in him. Opens his mouth, his body is shaking.

"Yeah. Whatever. I never like your loser ass anymore"

So much for betrayal and heartbreak.

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That night, his phone ringed. He scrambled through the sea of tears drenched napkins and pick it up, Mark is calling. Sniffling the sadness away and tried to calm his emotions down, he pressed his phone.

"You fucker, what do you want?"

"I know you're sad, I'm sorry", Mark calmly said, " Don't take things I said to heart, I didn't mean so, my friends were just suspecting me of being...."

"Fuck them! What's so wrong at admitting that you are sexually attracted to boys? Alright, maybe you don't want to come out but why didn't you just...I don't know...assure your damn girlfriend that I'm not gushing over you? You took my V card but it's too hard to defend me?", Donghyuck angrily shouted, "You said that you're my best friend but the moment that I got sorted, you dropped me!"

The other line sighed, "It's not that easy..."

"It is that easy!", the boy groaned, tears began to fill his eyes again. Gripping the pillow, he throws it on the floor as if it's the guy himself, "I put everything I have on the table for you and that's how you treat me?"

"Well, maybe if you have some fucking standards for the dicks the bounce on, this wouldn't have happened", Mark yelled through the phone and Donghyuck feels like his soul left his body.

Oh...so his own best friend, his own crush thinks that he is that kind of person.

"Is that so, Mark?", Donghyuck whispered and he ignored the older's rambling sorry speech, obviously realized he fucked up, badly.

"Donghyuck, baby, listen, we can work this out and-"

"Goodbye hyung", he cut the line short and end the call, sitting dumbfounded on his bed.

No one loves him.

He is nothing more than a brainless Omega.

What's the point of keeping a good image from now on?

And the next morning, Mark woke up with his phone, completely bombarded with phone calls, notifications, and texts. And there it is, on the school's confession page, his worst nightmare.

Mark really did his best to contact with him throughout his last, miserable year of high school but Donghyuck always ran away or used Jeno, his own brother as a shield to never talked to the guy once again. Back then, did he feel like he did something wrong? Just a little bit, but now that he is so much matured, he knows outing the guy who is probably just as insecure as he is such a dick move. Looking back on the days when people literally isolated Mark for lying like that, it makes him wakes up in cold sweat every night,

That's the reason why he is so confused how Mark could be so friendly, so forgiving and loving towards him again. It's too suspicious or if he could be blunt...Donghyuck feels too guilty to even forgive himself, let alone forgive Mark.

They're not ready for a relationship like this, short term or long term, because the ghost of the past comes late at night when it could drown you in sorrow, makes you suffocate in your own tears and times like that...not even the greatest love could save you.